If you really want to know the truth, all you actually have to is ask for it. And of course, you need to mean it when you ask. (The problem is that if you don’t actually want to hear it, you won’t.)
So just ask.
I do this all the time. I ask to know the absolute truth in this moment. What’s actually real? And then I stop and just listen, with no expectations. Well, sometimes expecting to hear nothing at all.
Today, consciousness dropped a truth bomb.
Consciousness told me today, in no uncertain terms, that reality is clear, transparent, untouched. Like pure, white glistening snow, but…. totally translucent.
What I was asking about was this experience I’ve been having lately of meaninglessness, purposelessness. I’ve stopped trying to fix myself and others. I am no longer attached to the fact that others choose to suffer (which just made me scared I’d fall back into it with them.)
This experience is dull, flat, totally devoid of any inspiration or desire.
Is this what’s true, I’ve been asking? Is this what it means to wake up from all that seeking and trying and doing? If so, I don’t like it. I want my endless trying back. (Although that clearly isn’t possible.)
So I asked for the truth. What’s actually real? And then I got today’s truth bomb.
What landed in my consciousness, in a second, without any ceremony, was the experience of total clarity. Absolute neutrality.
The knowing that ANY presence of like or dislike, good or bad, right or wrong, UP or DOWN… that is a veil. That is conditioned consciousness. That is learned, adopted, consciously or unconsciously. It is not truth. It is not who we are underneath conditioning, the veils.
Always. Only always.
If we genuinely want to be happy, the ultimate leg on this journey is seeing that all emotion, like and dislike, desire and aversion are BEAUTIFUL, powerful expressions of our humanity. I have learned to love each one and never push any away… but they are also the cause of the roller coaster of the human experience. And we always have equal access to the pristine nature of the truth of who we are. It’s our choice in any moment, to feel human or expand beyond that, or to fully surrender to and embrace all of it.